After Em and Ella were snuggled in and asleep last night, Mom and I rendezvoused on the stoop for a moonlit chat before going to bed ourselves. I had to remember, record in my mind parts of our conversation because it was that profoundly meaningful.
Mom read the “Always Remember I love You My Molly Mugwump” blog post and cried. This was her response to me: “I am not amazing. For thirteen years, I prayed for you. I truly believe you were a gift from God. All I have done, Nicole, is take care of you because I wanted you so badly and I promised God if he gave you to me, I would take care of you.”
She told me I was the one who is amazing and special and that she has always know this. She also said that she thinks I am finally starting to understand that I am special – though I haven’t fully grasped it in her opinion. While she has no plans on going anywhere any time soon, Mom also told me that if she went to sleep and wasn’t there in the morning, I would know that she was at peace because she has seen me happier than I have been in a long time. She said she had confidence in my ability to do anything I put my mind to, and that she is so very proud of me (I can’t type this without crying. Geez!)
We talked about other things. About this project I have undertaken. What I quoted above, however, are words I will forever carry with me. She might not think she is, but my mom is amazing to me. I only hope I can be a fragment of the mom she is -- for Em and Ella. I am humbled by the way my life has been blessed. Truly. Honestly. Deeply.
My Mom never ceases to amaze and inspire me. I simply had to share this!
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